Im eating lunchables

Who says that you have to stop eating lunchables because you're past the age of 7??
I say screw that, this is a well rounded snack.

Cracks...

Leave the past behind, just walk away
When it's over, and the heart breaks
Then the cracks begin to show...

Cracks - Flux Pavillion ft. Belle Humble

It's a new day...

It's a new day and always i stop and think about what i remember.
My life is an entity that gets created and destroyed with each passing day.
i 'll hug the air that passes thorough my lungs until the sun rises.
i'm literally... here. i can't be anywhere else.
No matter how much i remember.
i just want to be able to get by. One day. Any day.

Sometimes i stop and think about him and i lose my breath. i can't help myself.
It's only natural to want something that's natural. We breathe because our bodies say we need air. i remember because my body says i need him. It's been hard, but i don't see any other way.
i'm stuck in the epicenter of memories that flood past my soul. My brain. My eyes.
Drenching everything that stands in it's way.

It's unforgiving the forgivable. i've always found that hard to forgive, things that are forgivable... normally they carry the facade of being unforgivable. So perplexing.

As it is meant to be. Almost everything now a days is perplexing. A phenomenon of moments.
The world can be such a small space despite being so large.
Tying it's way around these moments and linking them.
A lineage of veins and arteries. The heartbeat of life.

So perplexing. And simple.
All apart of a new day.

A Wasted Moment

The paradox of a parody 

   that lives deep inside of me 

I can never be free can't you see.

The pain rains on me 

    as it reigns over me 

 My soul is all I see 

and never what's inside of me...

I know what I could be 

  what I should be & 

what I would be

    but all I wanna be is 

FREE

free to be me....

But the pressure rains down on me 

     It reigns over me 

I am nothing can't you see 

  I am everything I wanna be 

I AM ME

forever me.

Tick Tick Toc on the clock

    & on the dot. 

I can't sleep. My mind races 

 a speedway of thought. 

No winner for I have lost 

    My mind 

I believe I left it 

 behind.

My story is just a parody 

   of what lies 

Deep inside of me

       I've lost the time can't you see

I've lost my mind, can it be?

And the feelings rain on top of me 

        as the feelings reign over me

I am no longer lost for words 

   as words pour out of me. 

Rocking back and forth 

   Asylum is my home 

in my mind I live

nevermore, nevermore...

1,2,3... I count more than enough 

       words for names, leaving behind a memory

of what is left of me

  still just an enigmatic 

time box, tick tock. tick tock

  hands dance around a circle 

No longer just a memory but...

          a melody of a wasted moment. 

Blank stares into the eyes that 

 aren't there. They judge me. 

     They Judge Me. 

As tears reain inside of me

        And pain reigns over me 

I was never lost can't you see  

           For nevermore I AM it can be.